As with every meeting I attend the leader, thanks Ali, points out that I'm a new staff member and explains my journey thus far and then points out to people that I am also blogging my journey, from a male perspective. She also eventually gets to a point where she has to tell people that if they're a little bit sensitive about swearing that maybe my blog might not be their cup of tea. ok so I'm blunt and I tend to call a spade a spade. Which got me to thinking as I was driving to work tonight, Everytime I feel the need to curse or swear I'll substitute the word for something a little more pleasant, like Band names or something. So before I continue I'll just let you know now, thats what I'm going to do, just this once.
So this morning about 3am... I woke up, decided I was hungry and without even thinking cracked open that block of chocolate I was given yesterday, needless to say half an hour later it was finished and I went back to sleep, fully satisfied in the knoweldge knowing that I hadn't had anywhere near the amount of junkfood I would have normally have had within the last week and that it wouldn't really affect my weigh in come Friday morning.
I was scheduled to fill in at the Riccarton meeting this morning and that went rather well, I'd called in to see Ali with a cuppa so those points were registered in my head (I havent tracked the last couple of days as I've been a bit busy, but I'm pretty good with numbers as long as I remember them) Meeting done and I had to drop a set of scales off to one of her At Work meetings, which I was lucky enough to sit in on and observe some more of the signing up new people process. Of course there was another coffee before that meeting started so thats four points so far. Thats all good, I've still got 32 points for the day .... not doing to bad if I do say so myself, I may even be able to have Macca's for dinner tonight, just for something different.
The meeting ended and as we were packing up curiousity got the better of me and I asked if it was ok if I jumped on the scales...I was reminded that tomorrow is my offical weigh day but if I wanted to that would be fine. I was expecting to see some sort of loss but.... AWESOME...2.5 kg gone. I was rather excited about that prospect and then I helped gather the boxes and whatnot and we loaded up her car and I headed off home.
All the way home I was a little puzzled about the loss as it seemed like a lot to me even though I hadn't had the 7 bags of potato chips, I'd only had one. There was a rather large piece of cake and a whole block of chocolate, yes... nearly 10 hours later I remembered about the chocolate and then there was the eggs bene on the weekend. I got home and checked the orange... write your name here book for my starting weight.
QUEEN.....SPLIT ENZ.... WINGS.... MOTLEY CRUE......JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE... BRITNEY SPEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't ABBA.. believe it.. I had ADAM & THE ANTS maintained!!!!!! So much for guys dropping the weight quickly. Ahhhhh AEROSMITH!!!!!!!!!
I know a loss is a loss nonetheless and moving mountains means moving small stones first.... but to HANSON maintain. You've got to be MILLI VANILLI kidding me!
So instead of spending the last week thinking I was getting somewhere I hadn't gotten anywhere and just for that I was going to have a Quarter Pounder on the way to work and to AMY WINEHOUSE with the consequnces and thats just what I did. On my way to work I called into the local MacDonalds and got myself one and you know what?.... it tasted like (uhhh sorry but I have to otherwise it just doesnt sound right) Crap. A couple of texts later and I had asked if I could sit in on one of Ali's meetings tonight, I used the excuse about being near by and available to lend a hand with the pack down. In actual fact I just wanted to pay a little more attention to this weeks topic about forgiving oneself. I've heard it plenty of times this week but never really paid that much attention as I'd been busy doing other things. A lot of what she said and what the other members said made a world of sense and with a few words of encouragement I left feeling a whole lot better about myself than what I did when I walked in. Besides you never know... I'd be happy with a 100g loss on the scales tomorrow. But then again.... it could be a lot worse...I could not be doing what I'm doing now... meeting a whole new set of interesting people... some of them funny some of them not so funny and I could still be plodding along... with my bag of potato chips in one hand and a spare bag next to the computer just in case the first one runs out too quickly.
I love that you are "getting it"
ReplyDeleteThere is not much you have shared this week, that hasn't been shared by other Weight Watchers members.
From a friend perspective, it's actually pretty cool that you are beginning to understand why I have stood in my kitchen with you to measure out a coffee, or had a peak through the bagel at the cafe to see what I need to point.
Remember the reasons for your participation and commitment to the program, think of the high cholesterol levels in your family, the high blood pressure and the high risk of type 2 diabetes. It's not always just determined by your weight, it's largely determined by what you consume.
Small steps, many stones, progress not perfection... I could cliche til the cows come home.
But I'll just say, keep up with the little changes, you are doing a great job.
Ali xo